I woke this morning...
with my calico breathing in my face. Now, cat breath is not my favorite way to wake up, but, it isn't the worst. As I am pushing sixty and have abused my body in my youth, Getting out of bed can be an unpleasant adventure. Body parts ache, and complain as I swing my feet to the floor. The cats aren't happy about it either, they were enjoying a cozy cuddle. A groan escapes my lips as I repeat my usual morning refrain: "I don't want to go to work." I'm sure no one who reads this has ever felt that way. My day job, is that of a caregiver. It is not an easy job and it pays only enough to allow me to live. Don't get me wrong, I have deep affection for those I take care of. The job is one of bursts of energy and fairly strenuous work punctuated by stretches of extreme tedium. The temptation is to play on my phone for all those hours, It isn't something I am particularly proud of. But to be honest, fiddling around on social media or playing games does nothing to help me improve myself. So, I have started taking my laptop, Bible, and a notebook along with me to do some enriching activities. I listen to podcasts, take in the news of the day, study different things I am interested in. It makes the day go faster, and I don't feel quite as tired at the end of the day. And, It boosts my confidence. It gives me perspective. It fills in the gaps in knowledge and either challenges my worldview or confirms it. Don't ever be afraid to have your worldview challenged. But that is a topic for another post. The thing is, I have a remarkable ability to do nothing. The problem with doing nothing is that you have nothing to show for it. You gain nothing, you think nothing, eventually, you become nothing. If that thought doesn't scare you, I don't know what will. When I wake in the morning, I make a conscious decision to go out int the world, and be the kind of person I would want to encounter, kind, friendly, compassionate, and hared working. When I get home at night, I am tired. But, isn't that as it should be?
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